she is not mine!..well kinda

Thought I should clarify..after a few questions..Presley Faith is my new niece..# 8 actually!!! I just assumed when I put her picture up there that most everyone knew that Miss Presley was Christy and Adam's newest little one..# 4 actually!!!

I am in the process of hopefully moving this weekend..I emptied out my entire house yesterday and cleaned it for the next people..once Bradley gets the last few loads from the garage then its done...and then I only have one house to worry about....one that I am hopefully getting keys on today. There has been hang up after hang up so I am not holding my breath, but HOPEFULLY!! It will probably be a few weeks until I have Internet..it is supposed to be set up today..cause I am supposed to be in my house already...but I am not complaining, okay I kinda am, but I know there could be worse things right now!

I can hear Bradley's voice in my head right now....because as I type this, we have two very different opinions. I check the Christian Homes website every day, if I am being honest, its probably closer to 2 or 3 times, but who is counting. I checked last night and three more people got a baby...three more people who are not us!! Bradley and I differ cause his thought is why even check the website...I cannot even wrap my brain around that statement! So, I am pretty sure, but not 100% sure....we are now the couple who has waited the longest....so now I really may be bitter at someone else getting a baby before me!! All in His time, right!

Bradley did point out that we are currently a little overwhelmed with the move and its probably better we don't have a baby yet, while I agree 100%..that does not make me want one any less...

Pumpkin Patch!

We headed to the pumpkin patch out in Flower Mound again this year..but due our busy schedules the only time we could go was on a Sunday afternoon....not good planning! That place was out of control busy...like, even I was overwhelmed, not just Bradley! The kids had a great time, even if they only got to do a few things. Charlie still tells random people that we "go to the Pumpkin Patch!"...like they care! The line for this slide was long and I was afraid that after waiting a long time in line he would freeze going up the stairs..or freeze and not want to go down the slide. I was talking him thru this while standing in line..telling him what would happen and how to get up there. I told him if he got scared when he go to the top then just slide down on his tummy..that was god planning. When he got to the top he panicked for 0.005 seconds and flipped over on his tummy and came right down..without ever holding up the line!!
Still learning to like bounce houses..He kept pointing and yelling at kids to "Stop jumping, Stop jumping". This look is so him..

Why climb on the giant hay pile when you can just kick the hay...??

Like father...

like son..

he is a little mini me of Bradley..what Daddy does, he does like 5 seconds later! I am making a mental note to go back next year, just during the week days!

Girls night..

I am old..not because I turned 30 this week. That did not make me feel old, I still feel 20 and I am wondering if I will ever really view myself as old. That said..I have old moments. We had a girls weekend a week or so ago it was just what I needed and I totally enjoyed myself that weekend, but my girls weekends have changed quite a bit!!! We got a hotel in Ft Worth for the night and got there early with the intent to get a mani/pedi, walk around downtown, nap..just do whatever we cannot do at home! Well ,we got there and....did nothing for about 3 hours! Kendra and I got there early and made bows..real cool I know!! Kendra found a new way to make bows and they are greatness!! Anyway, I got sucked in and we made way to many bows to even count!

Our mess of a bow making station!

When Christy and Shannon arrived we headed out to dinner..Mexican! Kendra and I were cracking up that we brought nice clothes and by the time we headed out we all kept on our t-shirts and hoodies! Not like the old days..this weekend was all about comfort and relaxing!

We came back and played cards, talked, made more bows and rented a movie..I almost made a mistake and ordered a questionable movie, but I quickly fixed it and we watched Ghost of Girlfriends Past..which I thought was cute! Since I am know for being the first to bed and the first to rise I would like to point out that I was last to bed and 3rd up...making progress!!

It was a fantastic weekend that was MUCH needed...even if I did have to share a bed with this girl!!!!!

Nice..

On Thursday morning I was headed up to the hospital and decided to grab Presley some super cute crocheted hats from Kid to Kid. I ran in and went to the counter to get them..took me 10 seconds I swear....turned to leave and find Charlie like this...now that's good parenting!!

Weird..

Every day when we head to the car, Charlie runs to the front door and plants himself here...We leave thru the garage and as soon as the door goes up, off he goes. The other day I snapped this pic to send to Daddy at work..the next day Charlie ran to the door and flat out refused to get up until we "take a picture for Daddy". One minute he is yelling "No more pictures" and the next demanding one...weirdo!! Demanding a picture, but refusing to look at the camera!

you know I had to..

You know I had to put this on here...it's Presley(adorable), and giant bow(adorable), make that giant bow green...LOVE IT!!!

Miss Presley

Miss Presley Faith arrived Wed...ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!! I am super pumped to share my day with this sweet, sweet little girl!! I have been having computer issues, so I do not have a ton of pictures, but this was way to cute to not pass on!! She does love being here with us despite her face..I promise!!!

little update

A few weeks ago..well, its actually been over a month now, we got a call that we had been picked by a birth mom and she was due in a few weeks....obviously it did not work out, but just to keep everyone updated here is the email that I sent to my family....


"No, we are not getting a baby, but i just wanted to update you guys on what happened yesterday. We got the call at 11 that we were selected by a birth mom..throughout the day I found out that is was due next week..and you know that is what I was praying for, I love the "no wait" time. We were supposed to get more information at our conference call that was supposed to happen today at 10am.

At 4pm yesterday I got a call saying that due to recent changes in the birth father..who up until this point had been very cooperative..it was now off basically. Due to his recent behavior in the last 2 weeks they felt a closed adoption was the only really safe option..which was not what this adoption was originally going to be..They left the decision up to us to see if we wanted to let the baby be born then go into foster care for a month and then do a closed adoption after 30 days. We don't do closed..and since the mom already knew our full names..and we both knew where each other lived..closed is not really an option. They could not guarantee that Dad would not try to harm us if he knew us..and if mom knew us and he threatened her or her other kids then she could maybe tell him out of fear....

So, yesterday was great for the first 5 hours and today feels like so many other of our adventures to get a child...your going to have a baby..oh wait your not. Needless to say I was upset and down right angry at the agency for even telling us for 5 hours. I know no one has control over that father and that up until now he has been on board and super cooperative..but I feel that maybe some lack of communication left us with a crap day. I am sad, but I was surprise at how sad..it is amazing what you mind can plan and dream for in a short 5 hours...

We are fine and we trust God and we know he has the perfect baby for us, but this still sucks big time..
amie and bradley"


I am putting this up now cause I am okay with it now...I was not a happy camper for a few days..okay, maybe a week! But as with most things, give yourself time and you can find positives in all things God hands you..scratch all, most things. That baby went to another adoptive family right away and is right where he needs to be, and we made a good decision and we are happy with our decision..and now we wait on God and his PERFECT timing..and hey, third time is a charm, right?!

they are funny..

Charlie is at that age where at least once a day he says something that has me calling Bradley at work..this is one of those post that may be more for my benefit then you guys, but I wanted to remember the funny things he has said!!

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We were saying our prayers before bed last night and it went something like this..

Me:Dear God, Charlie repeat

Me: Thank your for mommy and Daddy, Charlie repeat

Me: And thank you for Cady and Mark, Charlie repeat

Me: And please bring me, Charlie repeat

Me: a baby brother or sister soon,

Charlie: Um, no

Me: Don't you want a baby brother or sister?

Charlie: Um, no. No baby. AMEN!

..and off to bed he went...nice!

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Charlie to me.."Mommy, stop freaking out..otay". Think he has heard that one one to twice! (in my defense I was cooking and NOT freaking out!)

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When we were looking at houses we took Charlie one time and when we would go into the houses our Realtor would say "Linda (last name), Coldwell Banker"

About the third house we walked into Charlie goes "Linda (last name), cooking bacon"..cracked me up!

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Me to Charlie.."Do you want a baby brother or a baby sister"..his response.."Um, a baby alligator". "You really want a baby alligator"..his response..."Totally dude"..I think I can thank Cassidee for that one!!

I know there are more funny things, but once you sit down to write it out...it all goes out the window!

How do they know

I noticed this the first time I gave Charlie an Oreo..he instantly twisted the cookie apart and ate the center..Bradley and I don't eat Oreo's so not sure where he learned it from..its just funny what they know and do..I mean, it makes sense...it is the better part!!
(still refusing to look at the camera)

My little helper...

And I wonder why my packing is taking forever!

My boys...

Charlie loves to "rockey-rock" in the nursery with us ..and play baby. Wondering how that will go when an actual baby is in the glider with us...Loved the pictures that I got that night!!

Love holiday P'J's

I will probably never admit how many Christmas PJ's we have waiting on us..but I can own up to Halloween since there are only three this year!! I have not manged to get a pic in his last pair, but I figured someone needed a fix..family of course!!

No, he is not miserable or unfairly treated..apparently he thinks its okay to flat out refuse a picture...um, whatever..I'm the parent, so whatever I say goes...right...??! Um, NO!!

No, he is not looking, but you can kinda see his smile. This is what all my pictures look like..he is hiding his face or running..nice!

Snapped this right before he covered his face..

Classic!! These are by far my favorite PJ's...due to my sight obsession with skulls..weird, right? Theses are even better since they glow in the dark....awesome..at least for me! I'm not the one sleeping in the room with all the skulls looking at me..Charlie was less then impressed..bordering on slightly frightened!! Looking forward to Halloween!!!!!!

Slim Postings..

This is my warning that my postings will be slim in the month of October..we are set to close on both houses on the 28th..so assuming everything goes good, I'll be super busy for a bit! I was hoping to do some scheduled blogging and just get a bunch done in one day, but the problem is that were not doing anything to blog about!! Once we get settled then I'm sure they'll be lots to post about! Unless God gets funny on me and tosses a baby my way..then I guess I'd be forced to blog!! So, there is my warning..it will be slim pickings this month!! But feel free to ask God to get funny on me....!!!!

Sea World!!!

We got to see Shamu!!!!! That is all I still hear from Charlie..that followed by.."Shamu is a BIG whale"!!!! I took very few pictures from Sea World so when I get the rest from Christy then I will actually post one from when we saw Shamu! How thrilled does he look in our one picture together from this trip!!!...
This was an accident, but I thought it turned out cool!

Katie and part of Addison's head feeding the Dolphins!!!

I must really love my child cause this was NASTY touching that fish!! The Dolphins are a bit friendly and after we ran out of fish one still "approached" us and freaked Charlie out..and kinda his mom too!!

Best $10 we ever spent!!

"Uncle Daddy".....Charlie actually called Adam this numerous times that weekend!! Bradley was unable to come and Charlie latched onto Adam..big surprise, coming from our little "Guys-guy"!!

Checking out the Penguins..it was pretty cool...

How cool is he!!

Cousin fun time!!

Heart Cries

So, once you are "labeled" infertile..you are always infertile...to some degree. I have a child and one on the way (no news, but technically we do..were pregnant on paper remember!!), yet I am always going to, in some way, identify as an infertile. I will always be a little ..um miffed, at the cards God dealt me and even more baffled at the hand dealt to those around me. I will never get it or understand it but having those around you who understand is priceless...and a God send. SO many of my close friends and acquittance are infertile..its a bond we hate to share, but are grateful to have some one to share it with. I found a blog that I LOVE and I love how she writes and what she write and how she says it...so many things have me going "I get it, I get you" or "I totally understand". The blog is My Heart's Cry and I was going to fwd this on to my many infertile friends..and sadly enough..there are so many that is is just as easy to post it here. I am to a point in my life where I do not question it or become angry..I am at a point where I really only see the great things that come from adoption (minus the cost..I will always get loud and gripey about that) and the greatness that is adoption..but I will always identify with other barren women, I am just grateful to be at the point where it no longer defines me, its just part of me..

Anyway, below is a recent post..and it spoke to me, so I passed it on.....
Rebekah @ Heart Cries
Do you know what really bothers me?The unpredictability of infertility.I understand that no one knows what the future holds and that life can change instantly...for anyone. But. For the most part, women get pregnant, families are created, and life moves at a quick and steady pace.Not so for the barren woman.The barren woman doesn't get pregnant, watches other families grow, and tries to crawl through the torture tunnel of heart pain.Last month, my cycle lasted an eternity (nearly 50 days - the joy of PCOS), and for the first time in nearly two years I wondered if I might be pregnant. The thought went as quickly as it came and I got angry...When we walked away from clinics, I closed my heart to possibilities, refused to take another pregnancy test, and never once during the adoption process did I question a lengthy cycle. My anger, now, stems from the memory of past ache. I don't want to live in that place again....that place of rise-and-fall hope. It's easier to cut pregnancy out of your heart as an option.Nothing in me desires to be pregnant. Truly. I don't have this over bounding dream of bellying a baby. However, the rooted wanting for a family is deep.I have never felt more alive...more needed...more whole, than in my current role as mom. And it's enough. If we retire in life as a family of three, my cup will be full. But, that doesn't stop my mind from thinking...my heart from expanding.People ask me all the time, "Will you adopt again?" Definitely a different discussion for a different day. Right now we're enjoying every moment in time, with Tyrus...but my heart does wonder...I watch Ben with his brother and think, I want this for Ty. I pack away stages of clothing and hope they're storage is temporary. Entertaining these thoughts is complicated...empty wombs are complicated. Ben and I can't just go to our clothes closet, snag an outfit for the day, and decide to have another baby.....It doesn't work that way for us. There's no family planning; no outlining for the future. The unpredictability of it drives me mad.I'm an organizer; a planner.God has been walking me through a very tight trust walk the last several months and nothing about it comes natural. I don't want foggy thoughts and loose inklings; I want predictable! But, then I look at Ty....my ever-present Ebenezer. My reminder of truth.God is faithful. He knows my heart; I claim to know his. Through Tyrus, he has shown me that his gifts are fantastic, his love untouchable, and the plans for our family great.
I tend to want things in nice pretty packages. While that might be okay for gifts (even essential!), it's not okay for life. Just because one birthmom found me through the Internet doesn't mean a second one will, too. I have to trust God that our family will be created in his way, in his time. I didn't believe it before, but I can now.
One thing I can say for sure. The waiting/not knowing...this side of Ty...is nothing short of spectacular. I live for this kid. He absolutely touches every part of my heart.

humm

The one time that it's fun to have a back yard that does not drain great!! These were taken a week or two ago when we had all that excessive rain..we sure had fun playing in the rain!!

And I should point out that Bradley just about dies every time I let Charlie out in the back yard without clothes on, just a diaper....Really, in the back yard?? But whatever, we had fun!!

So..

So, I am behind at posting, but cut me some slack, we have been busy.... Yup, we are in the process of "hopefully"moving...you know how it goes..we have a contract, we put one on a house, but you can never feel to safe that its gonna work...we just keep praying!
This little helper has been doing great at helping me pack...

This is how I roll..that's some quality packing!!

Look at all those boxes..that's where my blogging time has been spent!

So, I will try to get some post up soon...in all my free time!!