Mommy-hood is glamorous..

So, I often (always) talk to myself in my head..somtimes it's things that just need to stay in my head..other times it's like a dry run before it comes out for real. This is my converstaion at 3am on Wed night/thurs am..

Seriously, he' crying..fine, I'll get up since I am off tomorrow...."Hey, baby, it's okay mommy's here"..and Daddy's sleeping.." Let's go rock". Humm, the carpet is wet right there and I moved the dog bowl outside..I guess it is from them drinnking and dripping before bed..that was a while ago and shoud be dry by now.

While rocking..Does my singing really help put him to bed or does he just sleep so he does not have to suffer thru it anymore.. Sweet, he's asleep in like one minute..I 'll rock one more minute to seal the deal!!

As I leave the office where we rock...you have got to be kidding me, I know that smell..accident from the dog somewhere in the house..how in the world did I not notice that smell before...walk carefully, if you step in this you will be pissed....so far so good...expletive, expletive, etc.....yes, I stepped in it....I REALLY want to wake Daddy up now.

Okay he is in bed..clean it or sleep..who am I kidding, there is no way I am sleeping with dogie diarriah on the floor..It's freaking 4am and I am cleaning up dogie poop and Charlie is now crying again..I so wish I had a teenage pregnant mom here right now to show her how glamorous(and yes, I did just sing the Fergie song in my head to see how to spell glamorous) the whole mom thing is...

Holy cow, could there be any more snot on my sweet baby..crap, it is everywhere..lights on and we are cleaning this up..crap out there and snot in here and sleeping Daddy in there...this sucks.

It's 6 am and I am finally asleep...and my alarm will go off in 30 min...nice..the end..

It's always funny the next day, but not so funny at 3-6am!! I often think things like.." I wish I had a teen mom here right now". I guess it;s cause people are still coming to me telling me about girls..insert age15-17..that pregnant and is thinking of giving it up..insert option here that she almost always keeps it. I have lots of teen moms at work ages 13-17 recently and they think its so much fun..and it is when you come and visit them 2 times per day for 30 min each. I want to bring them home with me for 24 hours..some would still keep it, but some just may think..hummmm

have a great weekend!! Sorry about long time no post..but not a lot was going on!! I will leave you with a pic of little/big man drinking his bottle while watching his fav show..Baby Einstein!!

New look..

Big Thanks to Shauna for making over my blog!! I went to her with no ideas and I am pretty sure I was no help to her...but she came up with some great things!! Thanks so much Shauna!! Click on her site..to the right.. to see more of her work!

Snips, Snails & Puppy Dog Tails..

I have never really understood that saying..what does that even mean?? I decided that in our house instead of Snips, Snails and Puppy Dog Tails...we could have Camo, Skulls and Cross Bones!! It fits us more!
He had the shoes on with that shirt and looked to stinkin cute, but slowly the shoes came off then the pants and I just grabbed a shot of the shirt before that came of to!

I remember my cousin Kyler buying her son some skulls stuff and I was kinda like "Why on a sweet baby would you put skulls"..Well, now I know..cause the cutesier baby stuff is so fun at the beginning, but then they hit a age or size, where the "big boy" stuff is so much cuter. So, Kyler..you were smart all along..sorry I doubted you!!!

I will say that shopping for a girl is more fun, but dressing a boy is just as much fun!!

Real men/boys wear pink

So, it turns out that my baby's ears are no longer better. He spiked a temp of 102.7 and went back to the Dr yesterday..ear is still super infected. We were almost done with abx..but now were on another on. Last night was probably our worst ever since hes been born, but that comes with the territory..I just hate to hear him whine and cry. He was funny though..I took his temp at 8sih and it was 103.9...nice. We got a cold wash rag and put it in his head. I guess he felt better a little bit later cause he wanted to get down and crawl..but he managed to crawl with the rag on his head for about 30 min. I almost got a pic, but I kinda felt bad snapping away at his expense!!
Here are a few pics of him form last week..this shirt looked more pink in person..Bradley was a good spot and let me put it on him!

This video isn't not great, but he just cracks me up!! I know there are probably plenty of girls out there that love to bang on things and make a ton of noise all the time, but he makes me laugh when he does these "boy" things..the louder the better!!

Just a little prayer request..please pray for my brother, Aric..you can visit my SIL's website to get all her updates..Amber's Blog

Table for 18..

I am still to whipped and tired to write about today..maybe later this week. The family lunch was a bit much...duh..hence the title.....but the court part was great. The lawyer warned us it can be a bit emotional, but I just shrugged it off. Today was not that big of a deal to us in the sense that we have felt he was ours since the day we brought him home. But when the lawyer started asking us individually.."You are here cause you want to be his mom".."You will now be his mom"..there was more and it was sweet but I just kept thinking to myself " Don't nod..say yes". Needless to say I look like crap in these pictures cause I cried and also got real nervous at the last moment..I mean, I was in court! Charlie and the Judge..she was so nice! Afterwards, she came down and wanted to see him. She picked him up and then said" Oh, I changed my mind, I want him". We laughed and then someone pointed out that she could actually do that if she wanted!


We stripped him down and loaded him up..he was also whipped I feel sure!!

Bottom line from today..Charles Walker Way is now Charlie Walker Way..Cady thought we were naming him Charles so the birth certificate will now say Charlie....which is actually cool that she gave him our name from the start..any way, I digress

I got what I needed from the family today..and that was the motivation to write my letter..I just need to whittle it down form the 27 pages that it is in my head to at least...5..!

Thanks for all your calls and comments!!!

Were on the final stretch..

On Monday we are headed to Abilene for our final court date. After Monday there will be no more 5 pg progress reports, home studies, or visits with Christian Homes. While we love them it will be nice to be totally done with them..and paying them!!!

Our obligations with the birth mom and birth dad are one picture and letter/email twice a year at his birthday and at Christmas. We have not been able to put into words/letter how we feel about future visits with the birth family's. They are always so wonderful in person...I am not just being nice..they don't read this..they really are great in person, but we feel there has been a lot of visits and Christian homes feels the same. The case worker at our last visit just told me to tell them at this coming up visit on Monday that we had met out requirements and we would wait and see on future visits...easy for her to say...I have to always think..When Charlie gets older and hears this story/reads this letter..how do I want him to feel and view all parties involved.

Anyway, Bradley and I are trying to get together a letter and run it by Christian homes and then the birth mom's mom before it goes to the birth parents. The one thing that keeps coming into my mind is the birth moms comment to us when she was asked about what she wanted in terms of future visits. She told us that she would like to see him, but did not think it would be a good idea because she did not want to confuse Charlie in regards to who his family is. Above all, my biggest concern is doing what is best for Charlie..and we all know that God knows what is best and we just keep praying for his direction and guidance.

My other issue..since I am one a roll..this post was intended to be a one sentence.."Pray for us as we head to Abilene on Monday". We usually hear from birth mom's family not birth mom..which I understand since she is young but when her sisters call to plan a visit..I am out. In my perfect world I would love to have a once a year or every other year visit with just the birth mom. But with her young age comes an entourage..every time. Since this post was to begin as a pray request then I will end on that note..I got an email planning the get together on Monday and I feel certain it will be birth mom and her large entourage....at least I have a few days to get mentally prepared to pass my baby to people I don't know....I am not being rude, I realize they see Charlie as part of their family, but see it from my eyes...that's my baby....when you read that in your head it's supposed to sound sweet not sassy!

I will post on Monday or Tuesday when we get home. I would put a pic with this, but since I am at work it's not happening!

My baby's back!!!

I was all ready to sit down and write this post..and then I watched the Oprah from yesterday. I am so worn out from crying the entire hour...it was the one of the mistaken identity with the 2 car crash girls. So, this post will no longer be fun or entertaining..I am whipped!! Although, I am looking fwd to today's Oprah..the pregnant man!!
So, Easter.......we spent Easter at he Dr so we just wore our Easter outfit this past Sunday. I took pictures when we got home at 2pm..so they are not the greatest!! But I love all his faces!



The title "my baby's back" refers to the fact that we are now on antibiotics for a "extremely bad ear infection"..the reason we missed Easter Sunday..anyway..we are sweet, not whiny and we are back to sleeping great. I love him always..but I like him so much more on antibiotics!!!!!